EYES WIDE OPEN

EYES WIDE OPEN

🌱 Seeded by CJB today

The reality is, I had nowhere left to hide, I grew into a corner of life and age was coming for me fast.

I tried scraping through the walls but my nails wore thin, along with my aching body, I felt down, ran out of steam.

Then I looked up. Eyes wide open. As I saw the clouds beckoning I looked around. One last flutter of doubt before I leapt.

Plummeting away from primal thoughts about age, my soul clung to light. Its joy infinite, no need to fight.

And then it happened. I felt the smile. My shoulders that had been aching for so long burst open with glee.

As I hovered, my angel wings unfurled. I looked down at all those I loved, feeling their tiny heartbeats acting cautiously like mine had.

But then I felt nature's wind lift the weight and I chose to descend. Gliding back down to earth, swooping through every doubt, every fear, and laughing.

Today I now feel this rush of life. It was always here. I just had to break free of my primal chains with an act of love.

I love everything today! The way the news fills the air with noise. Where misery was heard I see lost voices wanting to live but don't know how.

I love how my family flow through my aches and pains, hugging me at every wince, as I watch another sunrise breaking free to reflect how I feel.

Today is going to be a good day. Peter Pan has nothing on me. My ageless soul is smiling because YOU have this power too!

So remember, when you look up, you can never feel down. Love you...

Always from my quirky soul to yours! ✨
CJB ✨

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What's that? You don't want this moment to ever end?

Oh darn it, okay, but I really must finish my book!!

When You're Backed into a Corner

First of all, I have to say: Life is easier if you never get yourself backed into a mental corner.

What is a mental corner?

It's when something negative happens — or keeps happening — that really makes you think you are unable to escape its grip on you.

It could be addiction, an illness, an abusive partner, by the way that abusive partner can be you! Holy crap! What have I just said? And my book isn't out to explain in full. I am trying to avoid these cans of worms... okay deep breath.

Let me explain that comment.

Your mind came from a far off day when creatures like sabre-tooth tigers could eat you. It needed to react, automatically, to get you to safety.

Fast forward to you sitting on your phone, the duvet scrunched around your warm body, safely protected by the home you cannot afford to live in (oops).

The point is, you do not need to be protected by your primal ego in the same way, and yet it still gets triggered. It can still dominate you. You can look in the mirror and it says nasty things you'd never say to anyone else. Maybe you flunked an exam—it says you are useless.

You get the idea. Yes, it is true the abusive partner can be you!

But here's the good news. It doesn't have to be. Like all bullies you can stop that voice by standing up to it. Today!

For me that voice tries to attack me saying my life is over! It says that I am too old. WTF happened to me living my life after all the pain I have been through has faded into history? Why me... you get the point. This narrative is not me, it is not you either!

We are made up of the stuff Peter Pan was conceived with. Our souls have fairy dust ✨ even Tinkerbell would be jealous of! We can do anything. With The Act of Imagination everything falls before us.

And today, I urge you to not let your primal ego back you into a corner where you THINK there is nowhere to go.

Like the poem "EYES WIDE OPEN" says, "Remember, when you look up, you can never feel down."

Okay, I better be going. Love you — stay safe, and treat yourself well today.

For the second farewell in this seed:
Keep sparkling today! ✨
CJB ✨

Sorry to do this to you again! But I meant to say. This poem was inspired by Andrea Gibson and her amazingly soulful documentary Come See Me In The Good Light. Here's a clip. Thank you Andrea!